Usually I don’t post on Sundays since I know that people are busy generally with their families or just out doing chores. But since this day falls on a date which I will hold special for the rest of my life and the worst day of my life so far. It still maybe a Happy New Year to most of the people but for me it is the day my dear Father passed away I know that for some of you people are not that close to their parents in general and father in Particular. But for me I so much close to my father and he was the most close to me of all this children (maybe it was because I was his only son out of four kids). He has guided me through life every step of the way and I used to seek his advice and he used to give me his advice all the time.
We were as close to each other as a baby is to his or her mother. It is his first death anniversary and I miss him so much. I still see him in my dreams and also keep his photos in my room. I still refuse to believe that he has left this world. It was so much heartbreaking for me and I don’t know what I will do for the rest of my life living without seeing his face, hearing his voice and just holding his hand.
My wife sometimes say that he is gone from this world to a better place but unless you are in my shoes you would not know how it feels to lose a parents who is as near to you as your own heart.
Right now I am so depressed and I am so heartbroken and his absence is what makes me feel so much lost in another world. I damn miss him so much that as I am writing I am also crying my heart out. It is so hard for me to go on everyday and I try to absorb myself in different activities just to forget about his thoughts but it is so hard for me not to keep on remembering him day in and day out. GOD I miss him so damn much.
This post is dedicated to you my dear Daddy. May you rest in peace. Daddy I love you always. Your Son. January 03, 2009
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